Jishoumushoku

By: nekobolo

Cover featuring Kanade, Mafuyu, and Miku

"Necessary evil, how one appears, what people really wanted to be."

I want to be someone like you. I want to be someone that feels very "me." If I want to, I can just go and do it. But then would that really be me?
One child's-play dream. The way I am, someone like me is better off dead
Where someone like me being alive Brings sadness to tens of thousands of people And no one wants me: I wish that's the kind of world it was.
If by just wiping me away Hundreds of millions of people rejoiced And no one held hatred for anything Then I couldn't be happier.
Tomorrow, I'll still tread between reality and dreams. Just like that, I'd love to disappear.
Where someone like me being alive Doesn't even register for hundreds of millions of people And no one wants me: If that were the world, would that be okay?
Even if I were wiped away That wouldn't change some hundred million people. If no one will resent me, then The result's the same, a loss for me.
In the end, everyone collapses in the same manner. "My Self" made in others will crumble away. In the end, everyone separates the same way—but—
Just because I'm alive Why do you smile so much? If you smile like that No matter how sad, how much I want to disappear— If only all my reasons to say good-bye Went away.
Even if I were wiped away That wouldn't change some hundred million people. But there's something preventing me And showing me that face, I can't bear to laugh about it.

Translation: zcatcracker

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Note: The title translates to "Self-Inflicted Colorlessness", though it also gets called "Self-Inflicted Achromatic".

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